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i need a haircut, someone send me pictures of some for ideas...

my moms co-worker/my dads good friend for over 27 years passed away today,and the funeral is tomorrow. nuff said

im hoping something will happen to end this

Sometimes understanding isn't enough. To the point where i don't care anymore. When i give up and say nevermind or forget it. I want to understand and care, but it seems when i start to care no one understands why. I just want to say whats on my mind, but i can't seem to accomplish it. so last night i slept maybe 3hours, then got up and got ready to go to the DPS with jess. ive been hangin out with her like everyday this week, im having fun for once. when i came home today my mom seemed angry, i don't like it when shes acting that certain way. She was telling me that i don't need to be just drivin around everywhere. i told her that shes always telling me that i need to get out and go do something, and when i do she gets mad. i wish i knew the reason behind it all. my dad got kinda upset with her, hes like she can drive where ever she wants. i just left the room..and came to the computer. alright so i went to w/misty to get her haircut, it looks way cute. im sick of this bye

Saturday, me, darius, and megan got into a car wreck infront of Sterlings. Yeahhh..THis lady infront of us just slammed on her brakes, and we hit the back of her. Megans car isn't drivalbe any more, the stearings out, lights, grill, radiator, fan...its broke...so yeah right after the wreck happened the lady that was driving the truck got out and ran into sterlings...was gone for like 10 minutes, and the other guy that was in the truck with her said he was the one driving..which he wasn't, becuase the other lady didn't have her drivers liscence with her. sooo yeah, we are all okay though, so thats good. i think megans going to court, as i will with her. Well my niece should be gettin here soon! byee

So this evening me and my dad went to go to the batting cages, but when we got there it was it was closed, and the place was for sale...now what am i going to do. Tomorrow i think that im going to try and see what the one in denison is like, im not to sure about it, hopefully it will be decent. Today my mom found a team on the internet...she gave them a call, and im going to a practice on saturday morning. Im hoping that this team will be "the one" i mean im getting pretty excited to go to this practice, but i don't want to get my hopes up. It would just be so perfect if this team would work out. Its sounds good so far, lets just hope it is.

Alright, so today we were supposed to go to court, but our lawyer had jury duty of some sort..so its being rescheduled to like 45 days later or something. Makes me kind of mad, because i really wanted to go today and give my brother support, and let him know that i really do care for him and his new life, and to try and get things settled for Once. So today we was our day to get Tori-and she was kinda feeling sick..but she still acted happy to be with us as usual. Then when it came 8 we had to take her back..then me and Trent went to Hastings and he bought a new metal cd...its quite insane might we both add. "otep". yess, u should listen to the wild stuff on this cd might i add. Then we went to Sonic for a slussshiiieee...and so now im here at home, thinking about what is to come in 2 days, which is the ACT. I am extremly nervous about it, i just started studying for it today. I was reading how there is 75 questions on 1 part and only 45 minutes to do those 75..so that pretty much means i have to answer one question in like 30 seconds..and im not a fast reader...this is going to be very difficult. Did i mention the Math part is going to be xcrushating...like for real. im completly lost on that part. I just don't know what is going to happen, i mean will this mess me up to where i don't get to go to the college of my choice. Will i end up a failure. I just want the best outcome, but its not looking well. so its 10:15..im thinkin that im just going to fall asleep since i have no reason to stay awake and worry over my future plans anymore..i have no one to think about, much less anyone thinking about me.

well today has been a rather boring day for myself. I went to walmart with my parents then i came home. I went to see jessica's prom dress and its cute. yesterday i went to megans house and chilled, then we went to walmart and rue21 and target, then to mcdonalds. At school from last period til 10 i had a badd headd achee. it was bad, i felt like i could have thrown up it hurt so bad. i was mad, because i wanted to hang out with megan that night...but i left after we got back from town and went to bed. its a good thing, that it went away this morning. geez. i really want to get my haircut, but i can't decide on what to do. I bought a magazine and i like several cuts, they are all pretty similar. But im just not sure if they would look good on myself. They are shorter than what i have now, and i wanna do that, but then again i kinda want to just cut my hair a lil shorter and all shaggy and layered and messyish!!! hehe..hmm idk i think im going to get my haircut one wednesday...wish me luck. so i haven't updated this in forever. every once in a while i like to type on this, because no one really reads it. its pretty much kinda secret, well at least it feels it to me...but if you are reading this, leave me some comments, it will make me happy! lol. i wanna go to a TBS concert so bad, they are going to be with angels and airwaves, head automatica, and the subways...which i think would be great. im rather nervous about the whole prom idea. i mean i have a dress, and all the acceries, sept for i want like a black choker, i haven't found one anywhere....haven't had luck with that. its just that im afraid about my hair. hopefully it will all turn out to be okayy. and i don't know what im going to do about my makeup, i mean i don't really wear all that much makeup, just eyeliner and maskera...thats all. i wonder if i can find someone to do it for me. idk?

how are you supposed to be someone ur not and do something that you want to do, i want to do something so bad, but i can't get up enough confidence to just do it. why do things like this have to be so hard for me? i wish that i could get the guts to just freakin go for it! There isn't a day that i don't think about it. and wonder. why.

so i get a free day in BCIS2. so thats good. haven't updated in forever. sorry for anyone that cares. just super bored. and i NEED to listen to some music, real bad!!! umm i have a test in algebra 2. that I DO NOT WANT TO TAKE!!! but at least we get out of school at 12:30 today!! wahooo. anyways.

much LUV, burk

so i just ate, about an hour ago. at like 11 sarah called and wanted to know if i wanted to come to church at 11. and i would have gotten there an hour later, if i would have, but im jsut soo freakin tired. yesterday was a verry busy day, and friday night i sold dumb raffle tickets at the bball game, and after that me and sarah went to maria's house with bryce and garret. that was fun. today, later i might be going to the church with sarah, if i can. But i definatly have to read my book, and study my ions. Which i don't want to do either, i just want to sleep, but i don't care to sleep during the day. it just feels weird. my brother has a called a lot lately, which makes me fel better about things. i wish that i could find a job. but there really isn't anywhere that i want to work, or at least that is hiring. my picture is kinda old. but it scares me, so i kinda like it haha. my lips have felt kinda chapppped, hope it gets better soon. i feel kinda bad today. i hate it. wish i had someone to talk to.
muchlove

well im upset...that the Astros lost the world series last night. IT WAS RIGGGED!!! why else would they have taken Backe out! i mean come on, he was doing spectacular 5 strike outs in a row! and 6 is the RECORD! well i guess ill just wipe my eyes GOSH! and there were so many baD calls made! i felt sorry for Backe when he got taken out, because he was MAD and i would have been to, i mean he could have made history, and all he would have had to do is pitch to one more batter!!! and who knows how the game could have ended if they would have left him in. And they SHOULD have won the game TUESDAY ALSO. haaaaaaaammmmmmmm. anyways...this sucks! oh well that stupid white soxs pitcher got MVP and on the Wheaties BOx!!! and he and that team have horrible sportsmanship.!!!!! like come on, you struck out GET OFF THE FIELD! well they AREN'T GOING to be in the World Series NEXT year! Thats all ive gotta say..its 5:30, so nothing has happend yet. haha. im gonna go watch sportscenter or espn and watch the astros get beat out of a game that they really won!!!!! i can't wait for friday and saturday!!!

mmuch love

kayla

yeah, well i was looking through some old pictures...haha these are quite strange, so i thought i would put them in here! Katie thinks shes my twin.  and we even wear the same sliders!!!! haha anyways whataweirdo.  So lets see. i guess i could start out with what happened Monday...school.  Tuesday...school.  Wednesday...school.  Thursday...school.  Friday...school, and Football game!  Saturday...woke up at breakfast, drove to McKinney and playedd 3 softball games.  Sunday woke up again and just me and my dad drove to McKinney again and played one game-lost, so we were out of the tournament.  Came home babysitted...went to sonic...got the wrong food but still ate it.  so now this leaves me to what im doing now, which is ABSOLUTLY NOTHING! AND IM BORED OUT OF MY MIND...I NEED TO READ LIKE A CHAPTER OR TWO..BUT I DON'T WANNA!

Much Love!

wellll today was okay i guess..nothing really happened.  sept for in art..when Darren gave me a wet willy!!!!! haha then i tried to give KC one..but i just couldn't lol.  so i just stuck my *dry* finger in his ear just a lil!!!!!! haha.  anyways lunch was gross today so i just snacked on some fatty stuff.  and lets see.  Lizzy is in ISS because of Mrs. Wallace! im really ready for this year to be over..but then i don't want to be a senior! ummmmm im not sure reallly what else to say..Bryce spooked me like a bazillion times today.  and nate dogg always tickles me...that pretty much all of the funny stuff that happened today.  we ran the trail in athletics today..and me and taylor LAUGHED the whole Freakin Trail..it was awesome!!! never laughed that much while running...she was like this is the best work out ever..but she got like tounge tide and it was hilarious!!! anywaysssss i guess i need to read but don't feel like it...im SO glad that tomorrow is FRiday!!!

love ya lots!!!

kayla b.

WAKE ME UP WHEN THIS year ENDS!

Ever since thursday ive been sick, then i had fever friday and saturday night. I was feeling pretty damn bad this whole weekend, and it sucks! so today my mom made me stay home from school, which i didn't want to do, because i don't like to miss school, because of make up work-and having to take exams. So anyways...they gave me some drugs and i came home. This whole day all that ive done besides going to the doctor, is that ive been watching music videos, and Green Day has been on like 98% of the time. Which is GREAT. Butttt..the only thing is, is that ever since i went to one of their concerts, it has made me want to go back REALL REAL REALLLL BAD! I WISH I COULD TRAVEL THE WORLD AND JUST TOUR NON-STOP! Everytime i hear there songs, i just think about seeing them live, and my mind just replays it all.

well, i haven't updated in a while...lets see what has happened in thte past..i think that it was the 26th that i went to a green day concert in dallas. IT kicked ASS! and just been playing softball as usual...i thinkt thats about it...last night was the bonfire at school, i thought that it sucked...because they started it b4 it was dark. Umm WELL i HATE ENGLISH class this year!!!! like i dread that class soo much everyday. i really dont have much to say...nothing has really been going on. well someee things, but i really don't want to talk about it. Today i ordered my class ring...i think it going to be super stupid though, because the finger that im going to wear it on is the one that i broke...and so it like swells up and shit...and today it was really hurting and was swollen a lot and turned a lil purple on the knunkle. so i have to get like a size 8 1/2 because the ring could get stuck on there and have to bee cuttt off! Well im gonna gooo so byeee!

love,

kla b.

me and my parents went looking at cars from like 9am-4:30pm. After we got done..we stopped at Steak and Shake...It WAS GREEAT. Ive never ate there before...but im glad that we did. I got a huge ROot Beer float and a hamburger and some freakin sweet fries. Anyways so we went home after that...and so now im on here...and watching Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. Wed-Friday im going to be watching this 9yr old. That should be interesting. Im not sure what ill be doing monday or tuesday, so i guess ill fill yall in on that whenever it comes down to it. Im not sure of what else has been going on lately-its all been pretty blah. So school is going to start soon and the summer has gone by fast. im not sure that im ready to be junior, but oh well. Later!
kayla

im just sitting here, looking at the screen, and thinking. So at 5-i got my haircut, its not any different, just in better shape, another layer or two..anyways. So i talked to bryce yesterday, and he said that he was coming back to school here. which is cool! i was supposed to catch for jessica today, but she decided not to go. So i think that tomorrow im going to buy a little clothing with my dad. I don't think that he works tomorrow. and maybe we will look for a car. Oh yes, and the people sent my license to the wrong place, so the post office sent it back, so now i have to wait like 2 more weeks until i get it..well maybe a 1 and a 1/2 now...but still 2 weeks. I was pretty mad.

im pretty bored right now, my mom is asleep, and my dad is asleep. my mom left the channel on dr. phil, and there is guy on there, that is addicted to hair. it turns him on, and he wants to get some right then and there. The hair has to be theirs, long, and silky. What a FREAK. anyways.

-22nd-
my back is sunburnt and i NEED to scratch it sooo bad...bah. Umm so this morning i got a call from sams dad, saying that he didn't get my profile email, which sucks, BAD. lol. So i had to send it to him again, and it took forever for him to get it, so then he calls me again, asking where the other 2 girls information is, and im like you didn't get theirs, so then i had to call steve and tell him that rick didn't get the email, and he said that he would just call him b4 they leave, and im like okay, whatever, so i decided to type in some of her information and send it to rick, i don't know if he got the email yet, but i hope that he doesn't call me again, because im afraid that he might be mad at me. So i don't know if yyouve heard or not, but im picking up with Mesquite Sting today, saturday, and sunday . Im pretty nervous about it, but i guess that ill have to get over it. My mom called me and asked me if me and my dad have gone to town yet, and i told her yes, and she was all like MAN, because she wanted us to pick her up a PAYDAY, she was really craving one for some reason. Anyways. i got my schedule yesterday, and it pretty well sucks, because i have bcis2 with mrs. robinson, when i wanted mrs. wood again. I don't realy see why we have to have a different teacher for computer class...i mean why not stay with the same, unless you don't like the one you had b4. My brother called me the other day, and he said that he is in a dust storm...which they are really dangerous...but it was a good thing that he wasn't out on the road.(he was in a parking lot when it was going on) So the other day i had a pretty weird dream: i was running down the road, and it was raining...then it starts to really really get into some bad weather. This BRand NEw Corvette pulls up beside me and asks me where some place was...aand then takes ooff and then whips around and asks if i would like a ride, and i was like Thanks, because i didn't really want to run another 2 miles in the rain. So he drove me to my house and came inside...andmy parents were kind of like who is this??? Oh yeah i forgot to tell the weird part o fthe story...the dude was Tommy Brossard..i woke up and was like what the hell how did he get into my dream? anyways...umm i guess that is all thats in my head for now.

c-i-a-b-a-doubleT-a ciabatta, Peace ouT!